Since late July 2017 fighting between ex-Seleka and Anti-balaka factions has once again set Batangafo and its surroundings on fire. The fighting in the area, in the north of the Central African Republic, has forced tens of thousands of people to abandon the temporary shelters where they had been seeking refuge since the crisis began in 2013-2014. Many have found refuge in the compound of the hospital supported by MSF.

“I’m tired of running. As long as I can hear the crackle of gunfire I will stay in the hospital.” Esther is 30 years old, and lives in a hut made from a few branches and scraps of material with her daughter and her younger brother. The hut is behind the building where doctors perform operations at Batangafo Hospital. She moved there on 29 July this year with close to 16,000 others, when fighting broke out in the town between factions of the former Seleka coalition and the Anti-balaka.

The ‘events’, as the violence that ravaged the country in 2013 and 2014 is known here, are still present in people’s minds. Not everyone who fled Batangafo in 2013 returned, and 23,000 people still live on the hill in sites for displaced people. It is in these sites that fighting has again broken out. Those who had already lost everything saw their huts burnt to the ground, forcing tens of thousands to flee once again.

“I don’t know why they fight. Any reason seems to be enough to start fighting again, to take the opportunity to loot everything. In the fighting in July, some of my relatives were killed and all my belongings were destroyed or stolen,” continues Esther. In 2014 she fled to a site for displaced people. In spite of the ceasefire agreement signed that year – which was more or less respected by the two main parties to the conflict – she didn’t return to her neighbourhood for fear of being robbed or beaten by the armed men who never left Batangafo.

Today she is at the hospital with thousands of others, hoping like them that it will provide a modicum of security. The number of displaced people there varies according to the conflict: people try to return to their homes, only to return at the sound of gunfire. They are afraid for their lives, the only thing they have left.

The violence continued in the town in August and September of this year, until the ex-Seleka and Anti-Balaka signed a new ceasefire agreement. Since October a new ‘self-defence’ group has sprung up, founded in a village not far from Batangafo. It is there that fighting is now taking place, beyond the river that separates the town from the neighbouring community, Saragba. Newly displaced people arrived at the hospital with nothing, describing villages burned to the ground and bodies left unburied.

“My mother stayed in the displaced people’s site. She told me that it was better if we separated, because if something happened to one of us then the other would still be there to look after the family,” says Esther. “The rainy season was hard, the tarps we used didn’t keep the rain out. We spent many nights standing, squeezed against each other. The dry season returned and we are still here. There is nothing to do. Before, I was trading a little. But it’s been a long time since the money ran out.”

There is little to celebrate when thinking of what the future might look like for Batangafo. Esther, like many, says that she hopes that peace will return, so that she can start earning money to take care of her family and send her daughter to school. But she only half believes that it will really happen. “To have peace, there must be no armed men,” she says, staring at the ground.